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Sep 11Liked by lala thaddeus

"it feels like the final month of summer was building up towards something that didn’t come, and now i’m left in a state of tension due to a lack of resolution." Omg I did not realize that this is EXACTLY how I feel as well until I read your words, but yes! yes yes yes

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It's been driving me crazy! Maybe the crisp cool autumn air will resolve the feeling

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Sep 17Liked by lala thaddeus

autumn as absolution is definitely my plan 😂

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I actually cackled bahahah

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(1) OPAL!!! An app for social media blocking! It’s brilliant. (2) I remind myself that people doing content for a living are doing it for a living and we are also doing so much else. It’s not gonna work the same and that’s ok (because when these apps or algorithms change or die out… we still have talents and skills and portfolios!). It helps me! But also I love your TikToks!

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Sep 16·edited Sep 16Author

oh that's such a good way to think about it! thank you alicia :) i love yours too!!!

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Sep 11·edited Sep 11Liked by lala thaddeus

I relate to a lottttt in here especially the push/pull between freelance work and substack AND that angst but I'm not clinging to the summer. I need the cool weather so I can hide from the world, underneath a throw with my cat on top. My energy levels do not match the pace of this shiny, happy heat.

I'd also love some pointers on the balance between self promotion and creation!!

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I'm sure I'll be thankful for autumn once I see the leaves change color, but I'm just a summer girl through and through :P It's a work in progress for me for sure -- I'm considering maybe plotting specific time in my calendar for tiktok/shooting videos but not allowing myself to exceed those limits? Let's see how it works haha

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Sep 17Liked by lala thaddeus

Tiktok is tough because you have to be so prolific, all the time. GOOD LUCK!

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Also very much love the dress by the fountain, and also have not figured out my “right relationship” to social media or the algorithm or whatever. In general, I see myself a person with a strong will and sense of discipline, but the minute I’ve posted to Instagram those aspects of myself seem to just dissolve … right now I’m doing the annoying thing of deleting the apps from my phone and uploading them every time I need to make a “business” post for a community initiative I run locally. It’s so extremely annoying. Even writing to you right now from the Substack mobile site bc I’ve deleted this app off my phone for the time being … but did I check the mobile site still like a million times today? Yep.

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It's SO annoying, I'm the same way in that the discipline melts away as soon as I'm on instagram/tiktok :( I want to be present and in this physical world but my entire social life is online. like how am i supposed to find out about local community initiatives without instagram?? a couple years ago i missed a couple parties because friends sent me invites on facebook which i never check anymore so i just can't handle the fear of missing out :'(

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Sep 10Liked by lala thaddeus

Ah!!!! I love your dress in the pic by the fountain!!! So v cutie!

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Thank you Amy <3

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